Um... Unfinished?

NOTE - this is the explination that I originally wrote back in 2020... while I may not be as extravagant with my expressions, the reasoning is still the same. I'll probably update this one day, but for now... here you go!

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I finally did it. I made, AND published, my blog. I've talked for years about wanting a blog. I have two degrees in the communications field and spend too much of my free time scrolling instagram coveting the lives of women who created their dreams. I longed to take pictures of my planner, create printables and share beautiful budget decor items. Well here I am. I'm no longer going to be jealous of those women. I'm going to become one of them.

I decided I was going to use this time of isolation (I'm looking at YOU, Covid-19!) to sit down to actually make the website... aaaaand insert my old ways of "I don't know what to name it" or "I don't have anything to say or share with the world." But as I was laying in bed one morning thinking 'I wish I could just publish it uncompleted,' God gave it to me; Unfinished.

Let me give you some back story.

You see, I am a serial perfectionist with an over-thinker's mindset. Nothing can be done unless it's done to perfection! This has prevented me from doing things I LOVE, such as create this here blog, and frankly, it has made me have a very difficult life here lately.

I am a Christian and have heard about God's Grace my entire life... but I never understood it. A few days ago, my devotional actually mentioned grace.

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in

weakness." Therefor I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that

Christ's power may rest on me. - 2 Corinthians 12:9

I decided it was well past time to look up the definition. According to the dictionary on my computer, grace in the Christian belief is "the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings."

Y'all... WHY did it take me 26 years of living to Google that?? God's grace isn't about forgiving myself for not being perfect. To me, it's about being in His favor even when I am not perfect. He loves me in the dark of night when I'm crying over not getting one more thing on my to-do list done just as much as He does when I've gone to church and prayed with Him regularly. Do you hear that? JUST AS MUCH y'all!! This is something I can get behind.

Now we go back to Friday morning... I was given this name. The more I thought about it, the more "Perfect" the name became. For my Type A personality, I feel that I can make mistakes if I'm "Unfished". I can strengthen my mindset to extend myself the same grace that God gives me when I don't do something perfectly. I can finally let go of that perfectionism quality that is hindering my love of myself.

So? I did it. I got up and got myself some coffee, read my devotional AND created this website. I hope to bring you along with me as I share my life with you in the weeknight meals, holiday decorations and the real life posts of being Unfished.